Hello

Originally started this on 01/01/10 with a recap of 2009 but never finished so here I am at it again. Madilynn is asleep and who knows for how long so I'll make this quick.

I'm starting this off by stating a goal..a weight loss goal, blah! I have gained 10lbs back that I lost after having Madilynn. I NEED to stay focused and motivate myself to get back on track. So as of today I weigh 170lbs my goal is to weigh 155lbs. I know I can attain this goal, I just need to avoid Starbucks! So I am going to start off small and make a pact with myself and not go to Starbucks for 2 weeks, ahhh that seems like forever but I know I can do it. Oh and also work out 3-4 days a week no excuses! Here's to a healthier me!

So today Madilynn turned 5 months, I can't believe it! Where has the time gone!?! I remember a year ago fighting fatigue and morning sickness, barely being able to get out of bed. What a crazy roller coaster of a pregnancy that was! She's getting so big and it seems like every day she learns something new. She can semi sit by herself but only for a few seconds none the less I am still proud :p She is also eating a lot of new foods, her fave are sweet potatoes just like her brother. I'm excited to see her crawl and get teeth in but can also wait so I still have more time treasuring my sweet little baby.

Jayden, whoa where do I begin? We used to be so close and I know that the distance is all my fault, I feel like I don't give him enough attention. I feel really guilty about this and am going to work on making more alone time with him. He is starting to talk back and act out when he doesn't like something he is told to do. It drives us nuts! But I really think he feels left out sometimes and I want to change that. The good thing is that he doesn't have any kind of jealousy or resentment towards Madi, he absolutely adores her! He's been wanting to be a big brother for so long and he's such a great brother to her. We plan on taking a family vacation to Disneyland this Spring, he's going to love that. We've been wanting to take him for so long and I think we've finally got the timing down right. Of course it'll be Spring break and they'll be crazy busy but oh well, we'll have fun regardless.

So this is it, my little diary entry for the day. Better get some sleep tomorrow we'll be driving to Turlock and paying Joe's college tuition for the semester, fun...not! I shall continue this blog in hopes that I find peace within myself through expressing the words I feel and the memories I've experience everyday with my wonderful family.

peace and love <3